Chapter 211
Nyssa pov
Darius had left.
He had gone off to war without looking back, and I had just sat there on the ground and wept bitterly, I broken down completely, my heart heavy, and no matter how much anyone called me, I didn’t answer.
Cassian looked flushed, trying to convince me that Darius would be fine and that I didn’t need to worry. The king can’t die, he had said, but I didn’t stop crying.
Serena and Isabella had also come to try to calm me.
“Queen, everything will be fine. The king will stop the rogues and come back. Nothing will happen to him, so please don’t cry.”
“Yes, my queen. Please don’t cry. The king wouldn’t like to see this.”
But I didn’t stop. No matter how hard they tried to reassure me, only I knew what the goddess had told me in my dream earlier that day. She had said I would be given a choice to make, and I would lose two important things. That Darius and I had an ill–fated relationship… and now that I knew Darius could die because of me, I couldn’t help but think the dream was about him.
When I had cried enough and could no longer cry, I told Serena and Isabella that I wanted to sleep and that I didn’t feel well. They helped me to my room, and before they left, Serena told me that Cassian would be waiting outside for protection, and that they would also be nearby if I needed them.
I told them I understood, but they should stay close to Cassian during the attack, and no one should disturb me unless I called for them.
Once they stepped outside, I got up from the bed. Now I stood in front of the mirror, wearing the most fitted clothes I had, a trouser and top as I got ready to go out to war.
Yes, I was going to go out there and fight to protect Darius. If he fought for the people, I would fight for him.
“You’re serious about this, right?”
Sheila asked in my head, her tone dripping with gravity. As I folded my hair into a bun and tied it, reaching for the dagger on the cabinet and tucking it into my boot, I responded,
“Yes, I’m serious about this. I can’t lose him now that I’ve just gotten him back. I’d rather die than let that happen. If the goddess’s words were true, if Zayn is as smart and cunning as they say, then he wouldn’t have attacked the pack without knowing a way to kill Darius. Even though I don’t yet know how, I’ll protect him with my life if I must.”
I spoke without hesitation, reaching for the piece of paper and pen I had prepared. As I began writin Serena, Isabella, and Cassian, I heard Sheila’s voice again.
“Okay, then I support you, Nyssa. I support everything you want to do, I also cannot bear fol
and Silas but there is something you should know befor
Darius a
decision
8:32 Tue, Sep 30
Chapter 211
she said calmly, her voice softer than usual, so different from her normal loud tone.
The seriousness in her voice made me pause mid–note. When I asked her what she meant, I never expected the words that followed.
“You’re pregnant, Nyssa. You’re two weeks pregnant. I wanted you to discover it yourself, but you need to understand the dangers of war and the baby you’re carrying.”
The pen in my hand slipped from my fingers and fell to the desk. My eyes widened, my mouth fell open av I took a step back in shock, trying to process what she had just said.
P–pregnant? Did she just say I was pregnant?
My hand went to my stomach, and a tear slid down my cheek as I stared at myself in the mirror in horror.
I was pregnant. Was the other important thing the unborn child?
I had miscarried twice in my lifetime, once as Liana, when Darius’s brother stabbed me in the belly, killing me, and the second time when I drove a dagger into myself while fighting the rogues. And now, I was pregnant again in the middle of a war.
Was I going to lose this one too?
“Why is fate so cruel?”
I whispered under my breath as more tears slid down my cheeks.
“Why… why am I pregnant now? What will happen to this unborn child if I go out to war?”
I had asked myself so many questions, questions I desperately needed answers to but no matter how much I asked. I couldn’t understand.
I couldn’t find the answers, so I cried harder, my hand tightening over my belly as I closed my eyes. Seconds stretched into what felt like minutes before I finally opened them again and when I did, I had chosen my
answer.
I would go. I would protect Darius and my unborn child.
I wouldn’t let anything happen to either of them. This time, in this lifetime, I would have my happy ending.
So I made my decision and stopped crying. Wiping my tears, I drew in a sharp breath before speaking, my voice hoarse.
“I’m going, Sheila. Please… give me your strength during this time. I need you.”
For a brief moment, Sheila didn’t respond. Then, a soft chuckle escaped her and she answered,
“I am always with you. Don’t worry, we will do this.”
Hearing her words, the corners of my lips curved into a small smile. I wiped the last of my tears, walked to the desk, and finished the letter:
8:32 Tue, Sep 30
Chapter 211
If you’re looking for me and you see this letter, I want you all to know that I’m fine. I’m going to the war to find Darius and protect him. Something bad is going to happen. I know this, so I have to stop it before it’s too late. But don’t worry about me. Stay here. And Cassian, please protect my two loyal servants, Serena and Isabella. Make sure they’re safe during this. I will return with Darius soon, and everything will be fine.
I stopped writing and placed the note on the bed. Turning to the window, I walked toward it. As I looked down at the great height below, my eyes darkened with determination. W
ith one last shaky breath, I leapt out.
田
