107 Bella The darkness that surrounded her was familiar and warm , soft and comforting , like it always .
was as her eyes closed , as she settled against Parker , and her fear seemed to just start to ebb away ; and now she was feeling who shed always felt when Selena came to speak with Freya .
She was in that dark place that felt like she was home .
She could hear soft rhythmic breathing within the darkness this time , and a strong , steady heartbeat which comforted her , and she felt her own heartbeat fall into sync with it , and sighed softly into the darkness that surrounded her as she relaxed completely .
the now felt and A part of her wondered if it was her own heartbeat , or if it was Parkers that heard all around her or if there was another that she was feeling .
Was this her own beast .
trapped inside of her , as Parker , and now she suspected , was hidden from her by Freya ? If that truly was the case , then it was no wonder that being here inside her own mind like this , buried in the darkness , felt warm and like she belonged there , as though she was wrapped up in a warm furry blanket .
It was likely because she was feeling * wn wolf .
Bella got a sense of disconnection from everything around her and then her chest filled with pain , and she clutched at it and cried out into the darkness as that pain ripped at every part of her .
A massive snarl came from within the darkness that surrounded her , and it sounded not only filled with pain but also filled with anger .
Then a blinding light bloomed all around her and hurt her eyes within the darkness , and agony tore through her for what seemed like hours upon hours , as that light around her slowly faded away until it was just a single thread of light within the darkness once more .
Where she could see that it was attached to a wolf who was curled round her in the darkness .
That thread joined it right in the center of the wolfs chest .
And then there next to that wolf was another , who she knew to be Freya , all brilliant white in the darkness of her mind .
Bella sat in the darkness looking at two wolves , one as black as the surrounding darkness ; only discernible to her by the brilliance of its blue eyes .
And one so white she was hard to look at .
One wolf she knew , and one she did not .
Freya looked right at her even as the other wolf tried to bite Freya and rip into her .
Freya was uncaring of the attack .
It did not harm her in anyway .
This is your true wolf , Bella.
Freyas voice came to her .
She wants out of you , to be free .
Like you have always wanted to be .
She is a Citron Wolf , just like your mother was .
I bound her to me , to stop her from coming forward .
Stop her and you becoming a slave to your fathers will 1/4 107 and being treated like your mother was .
Sold to the highest bidder every super moon that came , bound by silver all the time to contain you and stop you from fleeing away .
And all for his own greedy and cruel nature … Only when your wolf emerges does her powers of a Wolf of Destiny activate , you were of no use to your father or his Mate .
I made sure of that .
A plan they had for you from the moment your wolf emerged at just 16 .
Parker was the way out of that place , but I could not trust him , did not know him .
So I retained control to see what he was like .
But I could not understand him and his ways .
He was odd too me .
I am not Selena and without her , I only retain some ability to connect with the human counterpart of our Kirid .
Vex his wolf , I felt he was trustworthy and loved you regardless of not having me .
But I couldnt truly understand Parkers desires , so I stayed with you .
Contain your wolf as best I could , though once Mated , it was unavoidable , but still I had some control , stayed with you until you got your freedom from him .
He let you go .
That surprised me … considering he saw what happened when he was mated to you , I think understood clearly it was you that created pups .
Understood what you were , a wolf of fertility .
Still , he let you go , released you and that doesnt happen often when one knows what you are .
I stayed because you then needed me to , not in a true pack with the Wolfen Council .
Aston is a good True Alpha .
I saw this in him .
His fate was terrible like yours , and he would never use or abuse any , so I started letting go of you .
It was time you were safe where you were .
Over the past six months , I have seen Parker , watched him closely , and come to understand that he will protect you as would Aston , that either pack will be safe for you and neither will use you for the Citron Wolf and her abilities that you hold .
The choice is now yours , as to where you stay and which pack you live in .
Your wolf is large and impressive , as you can see , but unlike others , she wont fight any of her kind , she is destined to submit always .
This is why they can be controlled and used by those around them .
Her heart is gentle and kind like your own , and love is something she will always seek , physically and emotionally , until she has it .
Only a mate can make her feel whole , but even a mate can betray her because of what she is .
Once her heart , and the love she gives , is destroyed , shell be a shell of a wolf and controlled by any .
You are now stronger and have had a taste of true freedom , lived your life as you see fit .
For € 107 the past nine and a half years , I hope having this time to make decisions for yourself , will give you the will to continue to choose things for yourself .
Your wolf she was able to see everything you saw .
Feel what you felt , felt the rejection of Parker and his pack , but I did not let her , or you love him , because of what she is , because that rejection you and I knew was coming ; would have broken her heart and ruined her , your wolf .
You are soon both to be free of me and free to live your lives .
Choose your path from this moment onwards .
You , Belladonna are to protect your own wolfs heart now .
If she loves and is betrayed by a Mate , your life will be that of your mothers .
One filled with pain and suffering , one where , in the end , your wolf will die and so will you only to be reborn moments later without a wolf , but still retain all the memories of your life .
This is how your mother lives .
Secluded and afraid of those around her , but she was saved and sent away in secret .
To live a peaceful life , to be able to try and recover and eventually rebuild a life for herself .
Do not fear for her .
She is now protected by Selena herself and will stay that way until she is ready to re enter the wolfen world .
I took over her body to help her feel nothing about the abuse she suffered .
It is all I can do for one such as her , such as yourself .
It seems cruel , but I try my best to protect all Citron Wolves that are born .
Sometimes I can not get to them in time due to more than one being born at the same time .
I release your wolf back to you now , protect each other , stay strong , and Im sorry for the pain youre about to suffer in my severing from you and your wolf .
Better to feel this than to have been enslaved by your father and his mate , and sold to other wolves to be mated against your will every supermoon .
Or mated to one Alpha only to have him reject you after so many heats .
have come and gone as per the contract drawn up for your use to him .
Parker understands now the feeling of being in a mate bond that doesnt suit him , and wanting out but not being able to get out , because I made it so , he could not reject her until i allowed it .
He could think about it but not act on it .
I gave him a mate against Selenas wishes to punish him for not being true to his own heart .
He has grown from his experience .
She snorted with amusement .
I served him a lesson he shall never forget .
That final threat of light connected between Freya and her own wolf snapped , and blinding pain ripped through her chest .
She screamed in agony as her own wolf howled in pain to match her screams , then blessed oblivion of unconsciousness claimed her .
107 It was dark , but not as dark as before , and pain spread throughout her chest and she groaned softly as the darkness lifted a little more , and Bella could hear the beeping of a machine , smell the antiseptic of the pack hospital .
As her eyes finally focused on the room she was in , she looked about slowly as she woke up .
She moved her eyes about the room she was in and found not only Parker sitting in the room with her, but that he was looking right at her from over there on the couch against the wall .
Whit was asleep on the couch next to him , and Milly was on Parkers lap , leaning on the mans chest , sleeping soundly from what she could tell .
