101 Bella Shed never had a reason to come down into the packs archives before , while being the Luna here .
Shed had her own Lunas Library down a set of stairs in the Lunas office .
She could see it was laid out pretty much like the Lunas Library , only it was twice the size but had smaller bookcases with little plaques on them to denote what type of books were on the shelves .
She took the book Parker held out to her as she asked Whos allowed in here ? Everyone , they just need to fill out the form with the pack librarian , and then they can come and read what they need , he pointed to a few tables with chairs and lamps , or they are allocated a time and date for them to bring it back to the librarian , only human translations are allowed out of this room .
Well have to scan this one out before leaving the room , so it gets logged as leaving the archives .
Ill attach it to my fingerprint , seeing as youre no longer a pack member .
he answered her .
Mm , mine will not register , Kane and I came to the library and had my print removed from the system the day I left .
He nodded .
On that note , about you doing all of that with Kane .
It wasnt done with me because I just couldnt do it … he sighed , Id likely have reclaimed you , marked and mated you whether you wanted that or not .
It was a hard day for me .
I left the pack in the end , so I could let you go … I really didnt want to , but you needed your freedom .
She stared at him as they left the archives .
Oh , I thought you left the pack to go and Mark and Mate Carina .
Parker shook his head .
It was so I didnt know the exact moment you left pack territory .
Id likely have stopped you , gone after you and … he ran a hand through his hair .
Made things a lot worse .
Im sorry , I dont think that … she trailed off .
How did one state shed still have said no to him , shed craved her freedom and even if hed told her back then that hed loved her and wanted her to stay , shed not have wanted that herself .
Shed not felt anything for him .
She never had, and she didnt think it was at all his fault either .
It was likely to do with Freya , she now realised .
I know and at least I understand that now… How are you feeling ? I got the feeling that you were a bit overwhelmed today , I think .
< 101 Bella nodded Upset .
She stated I couldnt even understand my own tears .
+8 Points ) I saw that .
Theres probably going to be more of that , you being overwhelmed if , as we suspect , there is a wolf underneath Freya trying to get out of you .
If Freya has cut off your connection to everything and everyone … when shes gone , He sighed a little on the heavy side .
I think youll feel overwhelmed by everything , and Belladonna , you might not cope with that .
A sudden onset of emotions youve never had to deal with before .
She muttered , that was probably not going to be fun for her .
Do you think Freya did it on purpose ? she asked curiously .
He seemed to think about it for a long moment and then stated , It is likely , though , in her eyes , she may have a very good reason , if she was your mothers wolf .
Though I dont think she was that either , she could well have taken your mother over to stop her from feeling all the pain and hurt a Citron Wolf suffers through .
Shed thought that herself just today .
I guess not feeling any emotions about anything at all , that would disconnect one from trauma and harm done to them .
Maybe she thought she was saving me .
Bella mused .
From your own father at that .
If he made use of your mother in that very manner , your life would have been just like hers , if your own wolf emerged at you turning 16 , and he saw her , Parker nodded slowly .
He was evil .
She muttered .
Parker nodded .
Youre nothing like him , Belladonna .
I know , neither is Whit , thank goodness .
She nodded .
Parker smiled at her .
He takes after you .
Hmm , Id say after both of us .
She did see a lot of Parker in Whit , though it had never bothered her , just amused her a little when shed seen it or made her blink in surprise at times .
He wont be a Citron Wolf either .
From my knowledge , all Wolves of Destiny are female , Parker stated .
She frowned at that thought Better have all boys then .
She murmured to herself and found Parker looking right at her .
You want more children ? he asked .
Oh , um … just well , a random thought there .
She stated and turned her eyes to the book in her hand , as she felt her cheeks heat with embarrassment .
Only to hear Parker chuckle softly but 2/4 TOT say nothing .
Shed never felt embarrassed about anything before .
+8 Points > If you want to discuss that book after you read it , Ill be in my office .
I believe Whits having a dad free day , until dinner time .
I know , she nodded , in the dining hall .
She stated and thanked him for giving her the book to read and headed off to pick up Milly so that Whit could have the afternoon with it just being him and his friends .
She told Whit shed be at the house with Milly if he wanted her .
To which he nodded though then really looked at her for a moment , before shaking it off and going back to playing with his friends , told her hed see her after dinner with his dad .
Milly was happy to play with the toys in the house and watch a TV show she liked , while Bella sat on the couch and read that book .
It wasnt very big , only 20 pages and there were illustrations to show what a Citron wolf looked like .
She thought that was a bad idea considering what they were used for .
It detailed out what Citron wolves looked like ; they varied a little bit , but it stated that , like all Wolves of Destiny , they were predominantly black .
A Citron wolf though had a bright orange tinge to its fur , their eye colour could vary from bright orange to iridescent blue , and they were most commonly recognised by the unusual bright orange tinge to their fur , which was not a wolfen colour .
It was bright , like the Citron stone itself .
They were known to be wolves of fertility and their history went back a millennia , to the creation of their species , by the moon goddess herself .
The Citron Wolf was thought to be created to help populate the species , though not created to be used and abused , but to be happy and bring about fertility to those around them .
When one wasnt mated , it was written that under the weight of a super moon , s * x with a Citron Wolf would bring about pups for whatever pack they were in at the time .
That most would not find a Goddess Gifted Mate until later in life , so that their gift could be widespread among the Wolfen Kind .
It was only when the power hungry Alpha wolves realised what a Citron Wolf could do , did they start coming to harm and were used against their will .
They were slaved out on supermoons to other packs , mated against their will to Alphas in order to have them grow their pack .
It was also recorded that the use of the Citron Wolf came at a high price .
Its owner could make the Alpha wanting to use her , pay whatever he wanted because they were rare ; few and far between .
That the she wolf never got to live her life as she saw fit once found out to be a 3/4 101 +8 Points > Citron Wolf .
They were simply chained and forced into a life of slaved breeding and the one that owned them did try to have children with them , to create more of them , just to be sold in full or slaved out like its mother .
But most children that were birthed were boys and useless to those around them .
Only a female could be a Citron Wolf or produce a Citron Wolf and not all girls born to a Citron Wolf carried the gene either .
It was rare for one to be born at all .
Bella put that book down and sighed .
Her mother was just like that she supposed , though she had no actual proof of it .
But from what shed heard from her grandmother , it had to be and she was the female offspring .
Everything in that book told her things she knew to be true about herself .
She wondered just how long her mother had suffered at the hands of whoever owned her.
She had been told she had died in childbirth .
That was likely to be a full lie , to either help her mother escape her life , or to slave her off to another and keep them separated .
It was likely her own grandmother wasnt actually her grandmother either , just someone shed been bled to as a baby , so her own father didnt have to raise her and become attached to her , considering what he wanted to use her for .
