Part 10 : Venus Attachment Bella She could see the difference in Parker nearly instantly .
Hed pulled away from her , gotten up off the bed and stepped away from her .
It couldnt be a nice feeling to be rejected , even as politely as she had tried to make it for him .
Laid out the reasons why that he would see were actually valid even and that was essentially what shed just done , and she knew it .
Shed basically just told him he could be Whits dad , but theyd never be a family .
It was kind of making her uncomfortable inside her chest to see him like that .
She didnt want to hurt him , but that offer to have her inside his suite , it had made her realise something ; that if she took it up she was essentially telling him they were going to work out and even Whit would think that .
It wasnt right to do that to him or to Whit , when she didnt even know what her wolf would want ..
Then to have him offer to vet any Mate her wolf got , that had Freyas words echoing inside her mind Even a Mate can betray you , what if they did scent out a Mate , and he was vetted and seemed loving and caring , but then found out what she was and succumbed to the knowledge of being able to use her , like so many other Citron Wolves were , and her fate turned out just like all of theirs did ? It wasnt a nice thought , and no one knew if even what seemed like a loving mate would in the end bec
ome different once they knew what she and her beast truly were .
Parker wasnt like that and she knew it .
Hed known and seen it with his own eyes for eight years , but let her go , not used her for that .
Now it was confirmed to her by Freya what she was , and he still didnt want anything to happen to her .
Would now , at her request , back off and allow her to find a Mate and move away .
She stood in her room staring out the window an hour later .
She was restless as she pondered those very worrying thoughts .
She also had a headache , and not even analgesia was working to get rid of it .
She was thinking about everything now , what Freya had told her .
That Freya had been the one to gift Parker a Mate herself , and that Selena had been unhappy about what shed done … That Freya had punished Parker herself , tested him , and he was on his way to being like Aston … That shed been told to stay here or go back to the Hollowed Moon , she really thought about that , the two packs , not the Alphas .
They were both large and had impressive warrior numbers , more so than most packs would have .
Aston was an all warrior pack .
Parkers pack Part 10 Venus Attachienent had six packs , and this , his main pack was she knew , smack in the middle or close enough to it , from all the subsidiary packs .
They surrounded it , could be and was considered to be an added layer of defences to this very pack , so if someone tried to come in and take her , or did snatch her , theyd have to get out of not only this pack but past the five that surrounded it as well , not something she thought .
would be easy , and then he had affiliated packs out past that .
So she was , as hed said , safe here .
Whit was also going to want to be the heir to this pack .
It was just a matter of time before he told Parker th And the boy was announced to the pack officially as the heir .
Parker had already told her it was a done deal on paper .
So it was logical that she would also remain here , so Whit could be given his actual title , and she also needed to be here until the triplets were born .
That was a good three to six months .
Shed have to look at Bridgits medical records to see how long she carried her pups for , though triplets would likely come a bit early.
There were actually many reasons to stay here inside this pack , but knowing what Parker wanted , was it fair to him for her to be here and have him see her move on with others .
It was bound to happen , she had needs .
What if she was gifted a mate right here inside this pack ? That would likely also hurt him .
Hed told her on many occasions that he loved her , and if she stayed here , how much more would that hurt him ? She felt bad right this minute thinking about that .
She didnt know what to do and was very confused .
Shed never had to deal with thoughts or feelings like this before .
Never once had to feel guilty about anything , not even Whit not being a part of this pack or Parkers life , it had just never concerned her because shed not had emotions .
She sighed to herself as she realised just how much Freya being bound to her had affected her life .
Something which Freya had now told her was her own , told her it was up to her to protect her own wolfs heart .
Because she would seek out love , crave it essentially , was Bellas understanding of those words .
Her beast was also going to emerge , knowing she and Parker had been mated to each other previously , that they had a son together and that not once in the entire time theyd been bound to each other had he or Vex hurt her .
Freya stated her wolf had seen everything , felt the pain of being severed from him even … that thought stopped her , as she saw him walking this way with Whit and Milly .
Her wolf had howled in pain inside her own mind , that echo had been her own beast .
Shed been in pain at Part 10.
Venus Attachment them , not only rejecting each other but also when shed rejected the pack and Parker as her Alpha .
Her brain was ticking now , and it dawned on her that it hadnt just been her that was mated to Parker, it was also her wolf .
Freya hadnt marked him back , wouldnt .
So that moment in itself had to have been her own beast as theyd mated each other as well … It was completely possible that she was back here in this very pack because her wolf , when she emerged , would seek out the mate that had never harmed her or used her , slaved her out .
Wolves always knew what they were , if they had abilities and what they were .
Her own beast could well see Parker and Vex as still hers , as one that would never harm her .
They did have a child to him and his beast .
She needed to talk to her beast , before she emerged , because she was going to be ripped out of her in an aggressive rage from all shed seen of her .
Bella had heard it , the full fury of her trying to hurt Freya and a part of Bella now wondered if it was because shed been taken away from a Mate and not by her choice .
Bella hadnt known about her and hadnt considered her because shed not known to .
She , as a Citron Wolf , would crave to have a mate that wanted her .
Their former mate whose pack she was in , and he was currently stating he loved her , and even Vex was displaying that .
Or they had been until shed shot him down today .
Bella had no idea if her wolf could see or feel what was going on right this very minute or not , and she needed to reach her to discuss it with her .
She was again prowling the room when her attention was drawn to the window once more , and she looked at Parker as he was about to walk out of sight around the building , heading for she knew the hospitals front doors .
She focused on that , the attention and realised it wasnt her that was looking at him .
She reached out with her mind to grab onto that odd feeling of anothers attention and found a pair of brilliant blue eyes staring right at her from deep within the depths of her mind .
So very bright in the darkness but also so very far away .
Her head was suddenly pounding , and she staggered a little as she clutched at it as she felt that presence rush forward , so fast she stumbled back almost as if by the force of it , as that beast tried to aggressively assert herself over Bella .
Pain seared inside her mind and she fell to the floor as she cried out in pain .
It was as though that beast inside her mind was clawing at her digging and scratching away , trying to bury herself inside of her .
My human .
A deep gravelly voice came to her as she sagged there on the floor as the pain Part 10 Venus Attachment finally started to ease .
I am Venus and no more will I be denied what is mine .
I didnt deny you .
Bella tried to tell her .
C + Full moon , and I am out .
Venus snarled at her , like everything was all her fault and not their Goddesss own wolfs doing .
She was still on the floor when Parker came in with the children .
Belladonna ? he asked , and she could hear the concern in his voice .
Even after all shed said , he still held concern for her .
