118 Parker There she was , Belladonnas wolf on the surface in full for the first time ever , her eyes were all blue and brilliant like neon lights .
She was looking at the children that were hers for the first time , and he would not interrupt that bonding moment .
She was he saw making her own connection to them , attaching herself and bonding properly to them .
In all likelihood , something she herself had craved and been denied all those years , and now she could finally show them that she was there and loved them .
He also thought that her wolf understood that Milly was not actually hers .
Shed not birthed her , but there was so much love on display for that little girl that he and Vex knew she loved Milly as if she was her own , the way she touched her and held her said it all .
This wolf had craved to hold her children , the way she looked at Whit and how the boy responded to her himself .
Hed always known deep down inside that Freya wasnt his mother and as he watched and listened to them , he understood why theyd not felt their mother die , it wasnt death at all , that wolfen attachment was to Venus and not Freya , and Venus had never died at all , was always still with Belladonna .
Venus was her name , and he felt happiness roll off his beast as they heard her introduce herself , but she didnt look at him at all , only her children mattered , and that tore at him , and Vex whined in pain inside of him .
He pushed past it .
Her wolf had no attachment to him or his beast and he couldnt expect anything else , being overlaid by Freya the entire time theyd known her , been bonded to het , and yes , he understood his wolfs pain .
Because they loved her and wanted her , and to have her wolf just not want to connect to them or even look at them at all , it hurt .
Kind of felt like they were being rejected all over again , just like the last time hed been in here with Belladonna when shed told him she wanted her wolf to find her Goddess Gifted and wouldnt be accepting him .
That pain was now being compounded , and his wolf was hurting because now it wasnt just Belladonna rejecting them , but her wolf as well .
He could only try and give her what she wanted , regardless of how he and Vex felt .
She had that right , but Vex wanted her .
He could feel it , his wolf wanted to meet Venus , have her look at him and speak to him the way she had done their son .
He wanted to have that connection to her as well , but shed not even looked at them , didnt , Vex thought want to be attached to him .
Parker could only help Belladonna up off the floor .
He didnt actually think shed be able to do it herself , not with her injuries .
Though hed not liked the way shed snatched her hands away from him the moment she could , and wouldnt look at him .
Is she healing you ? he asked , hed just moved the children .
and her belongings into that suite on the Alpha floor and organised for Meredith to be there and help her out during the days .
Mm , it appears so .
she nodded .
I dont know how fast it will be … kind of feels light and slow going , I guess .
she murmured , staring at her hands in her lap , seemed unable to maintain eye contact with him .
Ill leave your things in the packhouse for now then .
Just in case her not being fully realised affects the healing process .
Though it shouldnt happen at all , only fully realised wolves could heal their human counterparts , so that was a bit odd to him .
But nothing about Belladonna was normal .
She just nodded without looking at him as Milly tugged at his pant leg , and he smiled down at her and picked her up , put her on the bed next to Belladonna , knew it was what she wanted .
Knew that Belladonna wasnt allowed to pick her up until she was fully healed and without her wolf , that was at least four weeks .
So , in the past week , hed often done it , just picked her up and put her on bed .
Milly didnt even hesitate to ask him anymore , not for anything they were bonding with each other .
She just asked him if she wanted a drink or food , to use the bathroom or wanted to go outside and play .
She just came up to him the way she always did to Belladonna and Whitney .
She trusted him , and he thought maybe she was starting to look at him like her dad even .
The way she climbed into his lap to have him read her a book at night , even Whit smiled at him when she did it .
But he was likely about to lose her .
Hed already accepted her , and he knew it .
She was Belladonnas daughter , so there for his as far as he was concerned .
Hed shown both Whit and Milly the suite in the packhouse and Whit had seen the Alpha Suite sign on his room as theyd walked past it , and hed stated Not in your suite ? a full question from his son .
Your mother doesnt want that , hed stated , and he felt pain touch him at having to say those .
words out loud .
He wanted to be a family , and she didnt .
He was trying to deal with it , to let her go like she wanted him to , and not show that to Whit or Milly at the same time .
was ou It was actually hard to do , and he on every ounce of his bloodline to do it .
He did understand her very valid reason for it , but that didnt mean it didnt cause him pain .
111 If you want to go in and look around Whit , you may , there is a room set up in there for you .
hed told him honestly For when … you come and stay here .
hed murmured hed altered his words a little because he was certain that once Bridgit gave birth , Belladonna was going to leave and go back to the Hollowed Moon .
That hed likely only see Whit every other weekend or once a month inside this pack until after Alpha College , and then hed have the choice to come and live here permanently as the Heir to study and learn how to run the pack .
Whit had frowned at him , and hed pulled on everything he had to smile at him .
He wouldnt let it be seen how he felt , because he didnt want to influence his sons decision or Belladonnas either .
It was all he could do ; still be the person that loved her and wanted her and the children here with him .
Milly ? Whit had asked him .
There is a room for her , though not fully furnished like yours .
I didnt know if I should do that to be honest .
Could be seen as overstepping .
Hed told Whit and then shown them into the suite he had ready for them .
It was set up much like the house they were in only here the rooms they had were twice the size .
Parker pulled himself from his thoughts as he looked at her .
She wasnt his anymore and was likely never going to be from what he was seeing now in this hospital room .
Her wolf had no interest in him , wouldnt even look at him , only wanted her children .
Not him , not vex .
Have you told Annette yet about your wolf ? he asked her , needing a distraction from his thoughts from the feeling of her pulling away and rejecting him once more .
No , it literally just happened minutes before you came into the room .
Ill go and tell her .
Shell be happy to hear it .
Come and assess you , I dare say .
Parker told her , and he knew Annette would .
Belladonna nodded once more but looked very uncomfortable with him in this room now , and he realised she didnt want him in this room at all .
I can go , if you like , he murmured .
N … No , its alright .
She stammered .
He didnt think it was , and he heard Vex whine inside him once more , as pain touched their chest .
He didnt like the feeling he was getting from her at all .
If he didnt know any better , hed say he was starting to feel a mate bond being severed from him .
But they werent mates , he knew that .
But he also knew they were in love with her .
It wasnt just him but his wolf as well , and she did 110 not love them back .
She was now uncomfortable in a room with him , because she had her wolf , one that didnt care about them .
Parker took a step back as he wondered if this was what humans felt when the one they loved didnt love them back .
Ill go and get Annette , he stated , and left the room .
He needed to leave the room , because pulling on his bloodline wasnt going to hold him , he wasnt going to be able to ignore that pain for much longer , so he needed to be away from her , so she didnt see it , and feel guilty .
