120 Bella She didnt know how to behave around Parker , all of a sudden , she was uncertain , due to what she had felt when hed picked her up off the floor .
Shed been uncertain about his behaviour since their conversation that morning .
Hed still acted like nothing was wrong .
That she hadnt told him she didnt think it was a good idea for them to go down that road again ..
Now she was uncomfortable because shed just felt the sparks of a mate bond , and did not know what to say to him or how to feel about that .
Though as he left the room , shed known he wanted out of this room and away from her , hed picked up on her sudden uncomfortableness .
Though it likely wasnt the reason he thought .
Even Whit had picked up how shed suddenly become uncomfortable with Parker in the room .
But it was more guilt than anything , and she knew it .
Shed just told him they wouldnt be together , and now he was going to be her Goddess Gifted Mate .
She had no idea if he knew like she did .
It didnt seem like it to her .
Hed not said anything or verbalised that hed felt anything .
different .
Was it just her that knew and what if , before the full moon came , he moved on because shed just told him that was what she wanted .
Whit was looking at her with a frown .
Mum ? he asked after watching his father leave the room .
Whats going on ? he asked .
You and dad , is there something wrong ? Whyd he leave ? She looked at Whit , what was she supposed to tell him ? It was clear to her that Parker had not relayed this mornings conversation to him .
Its a bit difficult at the moment .
She told him because it was .
She was very confused about how she felt , what shed said and the knowledge shed just gotten .
Whit stared at her for a long moment .
Did you tell dad we were going back to Hollowed Moon ? he asked .
He said I had a room in the Alpha Suite for when I come to visit ? Bella looked at Whit now .
Shed not said that , but she supposed what shed said could have been taken that way .
I didnt say that , Whit .
She shook her head .
Im just very confused right now .
To be honest with you , I dont really know … understand what Im supposed to feel .
She sighed I know you want to stay here , Im not blind Whit , and I also know Parker wants that as well .
Hes … she bit her lip and wondered just how much her words had hurt him .
Shed just tried to be honest with him , now it was all screwed up .
Hes made it very clear what he wants , but now … she murmured , thinking about those words shed said and now the sparks on her 120 own skin .
Why dont you just try it ? Whit muttered .
It might work this time .
She knew that he must want it deep down , for his parents to be together , what child didnt want their mum and dad under the same roof ; to be a family .
Hell , even a part of her had wanted that growing up , even knowing she wasnt welcome in her fathers home .
But still there was that part of her that longed to belong , to be a part of his family and be treated like he wanted her as his child , loved her like he should .
It was hard to be on the outside , and watch it all , knowing you couldnt have what you wanted .
It was what Whit wanted , for them to be a family .
Even if he hadnt voiced it out loud until just now , shed known it was what he wanted for them to all be a family .
Though shed thought hed not voice it to her because that would mean she would give him what he wanted , and stay here because Whit wanted it , not because she wanted too .
Its complicated Whit , that is all .
she sighed , and it was right this minute .
If Parker didnt feel what she felt the sparks of the mate bond , she couldnt just go and tell him she felt it , that would be considered coercion .
But on the other hand , hed told her he loved her even without the mate bond and wanted them to come back together , so would it really matter ? She didnt exactly know what to do right this minute .
Venus hadnt even so much as looked at him when shed surfaced .
But then her words had confused her as well .
She was , however , certain by those words Freya had stated , that Venus had felt the rejection , and now knowing that he was their Goddess Gifted and had always been from what Venus said ! Shed ruined their mate bond for nothing by rejecting him or had it been Freya that had ruined everything ? Had Venus known that Parker and Vex were their Goddess Gifted all that time ? And was that why she had been so very violent with Freya inside her mind .
Shed said Vex felt the bond even now .
Their bond wasnt realised , but they couldnt let them go .
Was that why he was so quick to want to talk to her inside the Hollowed Moon ? And stood up when she walked into the same space as him .
Even still mated to Carina , hed stood up when she walked into a room , just like he had when theyd been mated to each other .
It was a mark of respect , and that hadnt even stopped when he was mated to Carina .
Hed wanted to talk to her , have dinner with her .
Mala and Aston had told her he wanted to know how she was doing , and cared about how her life had been .
When he shouldnt have , while still been attached to another .
Venus had come to her to look at Parker with the children .
She finally come back to Bella and her first focus had been Parker .
Shed been watching him out the window , strolling along with her children .
She now understood it , it was what her wolf wanted , she yearned for love and to be loved , and there was their mate walking with their children .
Like he was not only Whits dad but Millys as well .
Her wolf did want Parker and Vex , and Bella now understood hed not treated her like a slave .
That was just her own view of things , and that view had changed over the years of living within the Hollowed Moon , where shed learned what really being sold to someone meant .
It was nothing like what had happened to her .
Annette came into the room and looked at her a bit concerned , but stated I heard from Parker your wolf is now with you .
have wolf Yes .
Bella nodded .
Kind of weird , I dont any senses , but shes actively healing me .
and it was weird she shouldnt be able to do that , not until shed fully emerged , which wast going to happen on the full moon or that was what Venus had told her .
Odd , Annette agreed , but that is also good , youll be able to move about as normal likely by tomorrow .
Bella just nodded , though Parker she knew had just moved all her and the childrens things into the packhouse , and it was likely no longer necessary at all Where is Parker ? she asked .
She knew that he didnt actually need to go and physically talk to Annette , when he could have .
just mind linked to her .
Hed used it as an excuse to leave her room because shed become awkward and uncomfortable with him right there .
Theyd always had bad communication with each other , though it had gotten better over the past few months and this last week had been really good .
Until right this minute , now it seemed it was back to that they couldnt talk to each other , or well , she couldnt talk to him .
He stated he had work to do and left .
Annette told her , and raised an eyebrow at her Did you two fight or have words ? She asked directly .
Hes been living in this room until now , and … she trailed off , her eyes moving to Whit and Milly .
Ther was no fight , she stated , and there hadnt been , but she was now pretty certain he was going to be acting just like Whits dad and nothing more , what shed said earlier and now , how shed just reacted to his touch .
Hed backed away from her , hed always stated hed respect her choice , and it did seem like shed made it , and she wasnt going to be giving him a chance .
Goddess , shed screwed this up so badly .
He was a good dad like shed always thought he would be , and not just to Whit but to Milly as well .
Hed been more than attentive with her for 120 weeks now , showing her he cared and wanted to make things work , all the things one would want in a mate .
She was so very stupid .
She felt very guilty right this minute for snatching her hands away from him and not knowing what to say to him .
Even Vex , his wolf , openly showed her affection , and shed liked it , had moments of shy embarrassment around both Parker and Vex and the way they flirted with her , and no one had ever made her feel like that before .
She was so very stupid , it seemed got a Goddess Gifted Mate and shied away from him , and why ? Because she was confused as to how it came about , because shed not been expecting it was all .
Who the hell reacted to their Goddess Gifted like that , made him feel so uncomfortable that hed wanted out of the room himself , to get away from her , himself .
She could well have ruined it before it was even realised .
