121 Bella Shed calmed herself down after the complete shock of feeling the mate bond sparks on her skin had worn off , told herself that her emotions were still all over the place and the sensation.
of feeling them with Parker once more had just overwhelmed her .
That not having felt real emotions for 36 years , she was still trying to deal with them , and that shed just completely freaked out over the thought of it , was all .
Because she wasnt at all expecting to feel Mate Bond sparks with Parker once more , shed not scented him out in that moment , when hed come into the room , and why would she ? It wasnt a full moon , so it had caught her completely off guard when shed felt it ; that was all .
Shed had to remember she was more level headed than that .
Shed also realised that Parker himself hadnt felt them at all , because if he had , hed have likely smiled right at her and tried to lay claim to her … No , he would have laid claim to her .
Seeing as that was his actual intent even without a mate bond between them .
So , she pulled herself together and accepted it for what it was .
Parker was going to be her Goddess Gifted Mate come the full moon .
She already knew that he wanted her , so he wasnt going to reject her when he realised what she was to him .
He was now her Mate ; he just didnt know it .
Parker was her Goddess Gifted ; she thought about that , and she knew it was actually what she wanted , for not only herself but her wolf , a Goddess Gifted .
That had been the very reason shed told him she didnt want to be his chosen mate again .
It was something shed never thought shed ever have because Freya had told her she had no Mate .
But Freya wasnt actually her wolf , and now she understood so much more about her own life .
It was just that Freya didnt have a Mate , which was very sad in Bellas eyes .
How could the moon goddess herself not have a Mate ? How was that possible or had something terrible happened to him ? She shook those thoughts off and let them go was Parker and Vex , e she and Venus did have a Mate ; and it A man that she knew , who was in fact trustworthy , hed been faithful to her for eight long .
years , he was the father of her child , and hed climbed into her bed all the time , every other night in fact .
Hed never been selfish about his attention on her , not once in the entire time they had been mated to each other .
Not even that first time , hed been gentle and taken it slow , 121 brought pleasure to her and hadnt hurt her .
Hed always made sure she enjoyed his company in that bedroom , and she had .
Hed wanted to hear her cry out in pleasure and know he was pleasing her .
Sating all her needs every time , and he never left until she was asleep , settled and pleasantly exhausted by him .
Hed always stayed until shed fallen asleep , she realised ; shed never really looked at it like .
that before .
Shed always just seen it as he left before shed woken up , not as hed always .
stayed in the bed , with his arms around her or held her to his body until she fell asleep draped over him ; which she now realised hed done every single time .
She never once saw him leave , shed always fallen asleep with him right there next to her , holding her .
She thought a lot about Parker that afternoon all the years they were mated to each other and everything since coming across him once more , being here with him now , trying to sort out her own feelings ; not something shed ever had to do before .
She sat and played cards with Whit and Milly and a board game too .
Then she smiled at Whit , at one point , her thoughts clear in her mind as she finally understood herself , though he looked a little unhappy to her .
Whit , why dont you and Milly have dinner with your dad tonight .
She stated .
He looked at her and stated Why ? simply .
Because youve been with me all afternoon and I think hed like that .
Spending time with your and Milly is something he seems to enjoy doing , and hes your dad .
I know you want to .
she told him honestly .
Whits eyes moved towards Milly questioningly , and she leaned over and hugged him .
Itll be good for her too , Whit .
Shes bonding to Parker well , dont you think .
And her little girl had done just that , because Parker treated Milly no differently to how he treated Whitney .
He had told her he would accept Milly as his , bleed her to him even , and she knew that he would .
Parker didnt lie , he was even going to give her a pack to run when she grew up , one of the subsidiary packs , because he already saw her as his daughter , she now realised .
He didnt just want Whit , but her and Milly too .
Probably shouldnt let her since were leaving , Whit muttered .
I never said we were leaving , Whit .
You want to stay here .
Parker wants you here as not only his son but the Heir , and I think hes bonded well to Milly too .
Being here for so long is also making me a bit nostalgic .
That doesnt mean you want to be here , he stated .
Im not going anywhere , Whit .
Lets give it three months and see Axel and Bridgets babies be 121 born and … she smiled at him properly .
Stay in the packhouse from now on , all our stuff was moved there today … you can be closer to your dad too .
That will be nice , wont it ? Why ? he asked curiously now .
Because its likely that well move here anyway .
This place is your birthright , is it not ? she asked .
Whit answered , But that doesnt mean you want to be here … are you only staying because its what I want ? he murmured , Bella smiled at him once more .
No , its not , she answered him simply , Venus wants to be here as well .
Its a bit weird at the moment for me , but Venus feels like this pack … is her home .
She told him , and it was true , this pack was where her wolf belonged , it was her home and Vex was her Mate .
So , again , not what you want , just what your new wolf wants .
Whit huffed .
My wolf is a part of me Whit … we would naturally align to the same things , so deep down it is what I want too .
I always liked it here , liked this pack .
It was a better place for me than even my own home pack .
I always fitted in here , was treated much nicer and got respect here , and I know many here , she smiled , and she did .
She knew most , just not those that had been brought here in the 9 years shed been gone .
You barely know her , a few hours , Whit stated .
Bella looked at him now , seems he was actually concerned she wasnt going to do what she wanted herself .
How did she tell him the truth , that his father was her Goddess Gifted Mate ? She didnt think it was appropriate to do so .
Because she shouldnt know until the full moon .
came and set , and Parker didnt know himself , she didnt know if Whit would be able to keep that a secret from his father .
If she told him and he accidently told Parker , would Parker put himself in front of her and try to seduce her ? She didnt know .
Honestly , Whitney , your dad … hes very different to how he was when we were mated to each .
He smiles at me all the time .
It was a bit weird to see that for me at first .
To know what he wanted , that he just openly told me , and then he flirted with me .
She shook her head a little ; the man was very different with her , compared to back then .
He was never like that before , in our previous Mate Bond … Today that awkwardness you saw , that was all me , not him .
He did nothing wrong .
I was a bit overwhelmed with emotions from getting Venus and then … well .
she sighed a little was going to have to lie to him , to try and make this understandable , without telling him about the Mater Bond .
But she could try and keep it as close to it at the same time .
121 Venus has memories of Parker , and when he helped me up off the floor , I got flooded with her memories ; of Parker and I together and … it was not something I was expecting at all , I was reminded by Venus of how it was to be with your dad , I guess you could say … That was as close as she could bring it to a Mate Bond without stating it , she thought .
She had been flooded with Mate Bond sparks , and shed only ever felt them before , with Parker , so it kind of was the truth .
Thats why the awkwardness on my part .
Ill apologise to him for that , for making him feel uncomfortable .
I just kind of freaked out to be honest with you , and needed a minute to catch up , and calm kto down was all .
Everything will go back to normal after I talk to him .
Explain that I didnt mean to upset him or hurt his feelings .
So … Whit asked , and she heard the hopefulness in his voice .
So , what Im saying is that after much thought today … I am willing to try , to see if it will work between your dad and I once more , she told him .
I Though come the full moon , Parker was going to scent her out and sink his fangs into her once more , the moment that moon set , or after Venus ripped out of her , Vex might do it himself , and she wasnt going to stop him .
She also didnt think Venus would either .
He was her Goddess Gifted and a good man , a good wolf .
