122 Parker Shannon had calmed him down completely , telling him that it was just likely that Belladonna herself didnt know about them being Goddess Gifted to each other , because she had not wolfen senses available to her , due to her wolf not having a fully emerged wolf yet .
That it was completely possible that he , as an Alpha Wolf , could pick it up because he was in love with her , had always been attached to her , and wanted her back .
Shed always been on his mind .
Deep down inside of him hed never wanted to let her go and often thought about her .
That , in all likelihood , he had never truly accepted it either , that maybe a part of him or perhaps Vex , knew what she was to them but couldnt actually realise it because of Freya .
That because Freya was now gone and Venus was right there , he was now able to understand and scent out who she truly was to him .
That perhaps Selena wanted him to know after all hed gone through , Freya having punished him with Carina , that she thought it was a nice thing for him to know that what he wanted and truly loved was going to be his .
Because hed showed with his patience and willingness to let Bella do everything on her terms , giving her choices showed he was going to be the right mate for her and her wolf .
That he really did love her , was a good , kind , caring mate that was never going to allow harm to come to her .
That he and Belladonna , as Goddess Gifted Mates , and unable to scent each other out all those years because of Selenas wolf Freya , that this was Selenas way of apologising for her own wolfs actions .
Hed sat there in his office and thought about that .
Hed never once stopped thinking about Belladonna during their separation .
Hed tried to push her aside , but there in the back of his .
mind , he thought about her more often than not .
Missed her and the person she had been al the time .
The moment hed laid eyes on her for that very first time , hed smiled and called out to her on pure instinct, because hed wanted to know everything about her life .
He had slept well that night , even , just knowing she was there and looked healthy to him .
Hed never liked not knowing where she went or if she was okay .
Hed kind of felt peaceful after seeing her and knowing she was doing well .
But then hed also been disappointed that she didnt want to talk to him , when that was something hed wanted .
Vex had stood him up every time shed walked into the room where 1/5 < 122 they were , a mark of respect at seeing her , because even Vex wanted to spend time with her .
Even though theyd been mated to someone else at the time ..
His thoughts and reactions to her were always mate like , because hed never wanted to let her go , always wanted her to be by his side .
Even while mated to his now ex , hed still be drawn to Belladonna , as had Vex .
If they were Goddess Gifted even back then , that would explain a lot .
It also likely explained just why it had been so bloody painful for her to reject him , why the pain and suffering had lingered , and then been compounded upon by her rejecting him as her Alpha , and the pack on top of all of that .
A pack that he now knew was actually hers to begin with .
All of his unit had told him to just relax , and calm down .
Theyd sat with him and reassured him it wasnt actually a proper rejection on her part , that he was the one trying to let her go , and if he stopped trying to do that , the pain would in all likelihood go away .
Hed thought about it and taken a moment to clear his mind , and let himself accept that she wasnt going to leave him .
That everything was going to be alright because they technically werent actual Mates at this point , and no rejection could be issued until she understood what he was to her .
Take a breath Parker , she stated she wanted her wolf to find their Goddess Gifted Mate , right ? Kane had asked him .
Hed nodded .
Then shes not going to reject you , shes just confused because shes never had to deal with any emotions before .
Just blindly went along with everything because Freya allowed her to be uncaring and not feel anything at all , and now she does ; feel everything , Shannon had stated with a nod , agreeing with Kane .
So come the full moon , shell not only shift for the first time , but shell also scent you out as her Goddess Gifted as well .
Axel stated , A win win for both of you , because she wants a Goddess Gifted , and that is you .
So youll get what you want as well .
You just need to wait a week is all , Kane stated .
Patience is the key , and you already have that .
No , not patience .
Shannon murmured thoughtfully persistence and perseverance .
Dont retreat from her like you did today , just stay by her side regardless of what she says to you .
She might not want that .
He sighed a little as he looked at his Gamma .
Maybe so , but you dont have to make a move on her , still just be how youve been this past .
Attentive , show her you wont be deterred , Shannon stated .
She was uncomfortable with me being in the room this afternoon .
Parked sighed .
Okay … But why all of a sudden ? Kane asked thoughtfully .
You need to ask her why ? Youre getting along and have been looking after both Milly and Whitney .
They even came and had dinner with you , so maybe there is another reason … he trailed off in thought .
Or maybe she just doesnt want to be around me , now shes made her choice .
Parker huffed .
That was how it had seemed to him .
Okay , yes .
But a choice you now know will bring her full circle and back to you , Shannon stated .
She never hated you , Parker ….
Kane leaned forward and really looked at Parker .
I wonder if maybe her own beast scented you out like you did her .
Its a full possibility that , that could have happened .
What if the awkwardness is not what you think , but because she suddenly knows what you are to her ? Kane murmured with a nod .
She basically told you no , she wanted to wait on a Goddess Gifted right , and now , what if her wolf on the surface picked that up ? What you are to them , and she now realises what she did by telling you she didnt want to be in a bond with you again .
Maybe thats the reason for her suddenly pulling away … Shes just confused about what is going on around her .
Kane mused out loud .
Now that would make perfect sense .
Shannon nodded .
What if both of you know but cant say anything to each other , due to wolfen laws of coercion ? Axel mused .
Parker was just sitting staring at his unit now .
As he thought about that , she had become suddenly awkward with him , but only after hed helped her up off the floor .
After her wolf had relinquished control to her , and thats when she knew , it was completely possible .
They also both knew the laws , everyone knew the laws of coercion .
Was that why shed sent both the children to eat with him and not just Whit ? Was she still allowing Milly to be attached to him for a reason ? But for a reason she couldnt say , it was entirely possible .
He waved his unit off , and they actually went now that he was settled and calm , and he did.
focus on some work that needed his attention .
He would walk the children down to her after the movie was over and act like nothing had changed , even though for him everything had now changed .
His eyes moved from the computer in front of him to the open door a little while later , as he and Vex picked up her scent , and it was getting stronger by the second , as though she was coming this way .
That was odd to him .
She should still be in the hospital .
He stood and walked to the door of his office only to see Belladonna walking in through the front door of the packhouse .
She looked right at him and walked towards him , was wearing a pair of scrubs .
He raised an eyebrow at her questioningly .
No other clothes bar pajamas at the hospital .
Im healed enough to be released .
Im not about to walk around in pajamas through the pack , so a pair of scrubs was provided .
He frowned a little , but only because Annette hadnt mind linked to him and told him shed been released .
He also noted that Belladonna appeared calm and had no issue with him right this moment either .
What can I do for you ? he asked .
Show me where you moved the children and I.
she told him .
I dont know where were staying at the moment .
Ah , of course .
Parker nodded .
Theyre watching a movie .
He looked at his watch .
It should be finished in about 20 minutes .
I know , Whit texted me .
Belladonna nodded .
Ive also texted him I was being released , and would be in the new room when it was over .
So youre going to stay in the packhouse still ? he asked curiously , and at her nod he motioned for her to follow him , and they walked to the elevator .
Im glad youre almost healed up .
I didnt like you being in the hospital all this time .
Does Annette have any rules on you ? Mm .
Belladonna nodded .
She still wants me to take it easy until Venus is fully realised on the full moon .
Alright , he nodded , seems she was back to being able to talk to him like normal .
Maybe the boys were right .
Its a pretty name , Venus .
He smiled at her as they got into the elevator and he punched the Alpha floor button .
Its different , Belladonna sighed .
Likely take me a bit to get used to .
Shes also , Ive seen , at bit on the aggressive side , though … Though ? he prompted when they got out , and shed still not finished her sentence .
Freya stated shed be the opposite of that .
Its a bit odd .
