89 Bella The first few days inside the Lustrous Moon went well .
The entire pack was happy to see her and Whit got to know many of the packs children , not only his age but those between his and Millys , as well as some of the older children .
He was off hanging out with them all the time , not something that bothered her greatly , because she knew that was not only why he was here but that he would be completely safe here inside his fathers pack .
None would dare to harm their Alphas child .
Hed also finally started calling Parker , dad , which made Parker smile all the time .
He liked hearing it , and Whit had told him not to call him Whitney anymore , just Whit .
Hed been running off to play with his new found friends , the children that would be the future Alpha Unit , and had hollered Just call me Whit , dad .
as hed run off to play .
Parker had been standing next to her at the time and his hand had grabbed onto hers , unconsciously , shed thought , and hed squeezed it tightly .
Then , a moment later shed found herself hugged by him , after Whit was out of sight .
I can call him Whit .
Hed stated excitedly , and shed picked up his emotions about it as well .
Bella had half laughed , and hed let her go , only to realise what hed actually done .
Gosh Im sorry , I was just .
Hed run his hand through his hair and kind of looked embarrassed to her .
Shed finished his sentence .
Its fine , Parker .
You always wanted a child , and now finally hes calling you dad , and really settling in here .
I understand .
It does seem that way , hed nodded .
Belladonna … May I ask you something .
She asked , at his once again , using her full name , unlike everyone around him who just called her Bella .
Just like back then , Why do you always call me Belladonna , never .
Bella or Bell ? He blinked at her a little surprised by her question and then stated Its pretty , like the flower you were named after .
I like it .
Bella and Bell are quite common wolfen names , but Belladonna is unique and beautiful .
This is also how I think of you .
I think your name suits you .
She stared at him now .
She had not known that was why he always stated her full name , because he liked it , but that explained a lot .
Its not why I was named that , just so you know .
What do you mean? Im certain your mother or grandmother … 1/4 89 +8 Points Bella sighed and held up her hand to stop him .
Dont look at it that way , Parker … The Luna named me after that flower , yes .
But not because it was beautiful , but because it is toxic and poisonous to our kind .
What ? he was frowning at her now .
It was meant to be a full reminder every day of my life that I was not wanted , was just something to be rid of .
She told him .
Parker stood staring at her now a little wide eyed and then his hand was in hers .
Come with me for a minute , he murmured .
Have you ever actually seen a Belladonna Lilly flower ? he asked .
No , she admitted .
I heard its a hideously ugly plant in the wolfen realm that kills many , and has a deadly neurotoxin that kills wolves .
In large doses , yes , it is used to immobilise prisoners mostly and is illegal to use for the most part , he stated as they walked into his office and he sat her at his desk .
Put her right in his chair .
Parker , I cant sit here , she stated .
You can , if I want you too , he told her , and put a hand on her shoulder to push her back down into the chair when she went to stand up .
Just stay there for a minute , please .
She sat and watched him pull up a chair next to her, the one she knew Kane used , saw him log into the intranet and then search out a Belladonna Lilly .
She looked at it as he tapped the screen .
Pretty flower mummy .
Milly stated from her lap as she looked at the flower Parker was touching on the screen .
Its beautiful , Parker stated Like you are , unique , and yes , it is considered to have a deadly neurotoxin , but do you know how wolves found that out ? By wanting to pick them and give them to loved ones .
Because they are so beautiful to look at .
It is also only the children who die from being exposed to the toxin or pollen .
Children see the bright colour and want to pick them for their mothers as a gift .
Its not why I was named that though .
She told him once more .
Parker nodded .
Alright , I understand , but I think , like so many other wolves , its one of the most beautiful flowers in the wolfen realm .
He smiled at her .
May I ask you a question now ? She nodded , and he asked , Did you ever really look at the filigree that adorned my neck , or 2/4 +8 Points 89 your own after we Marked and Mated ? Yes .
She nodded .
Really … what did you see ? he questioned .
It was a silvery blue .
She answered .
Kind of glittered like … she trailed off .
She didnt want to describe Freyas eyes to him , and she knew Freya , though sleeping right now , wouldnt want her too .
Like , Parker prompted .
Never mind .
She shook her head .
It glittered .
Mm , it did .
But in the center of all that filigree , was a Belladonna Lilly .
You not only marked me , but branded your name on my neck for all to see … he held up a hand to stop her next words of shed not done it on purpose .
It wasnt up to her what filigree was given .
I thought it was as beautiful as you were , are.
I liked the mark you gave me .
That I bore your name on my skin for all to see .
he smiled at her .
I believe there were a lot of things that kept us divided and apart , so that our bond wouldnt grow and flourish like every other Chosen Mate bond would .
He sighed a little on the heavy side .
Though I now know you needed to be released from me to go and live your life .
Truly become who you are .
Its why I never came after you … I want to Belladonna , but after hearing all the things you said to Kane , what Shannon told me .
I knew I had to let you go .
It would have been selfish of me to try and make you stay here .
She saw his eyes move towards Milly on her lap .
Now , look at you , a loving mother of two amazing children and youre actually happy .
I see it , the way you laugh and interact with those in the Hollowed Moon and now here in the Lustrous Moon .
That was all I wanted for you .
To be able to move on and be happy .
That one day I would get to see that as well .
Know youd been able to let it all go ; how you felt about being here .
I didnt hate it here , Parker .
I didnt even hate you , just never connected to you .
I dont really connect with anyone other than my children .
I can be happy , am happy , but I have no connection to anyone around me .
That has always eluded me , I think its because Freya wont allow it .
Shes different to all those around her , unlike any other wolf Ive ever seen and , to be honest with you .
I rarely feel anything much other than happy with my kids .
Its kind of … like a part of me is just missing , that Im not even really connected to Freya even .
I feel indifferent to everything bar my children .
His hand touched her face .
Im sorry , I didnt know that .
3/4 89 How could you ? I never told you that .
The only thing that truly makes me happy is delivering babies and my children .
I was indifferent to you always , because its all I know how to be .
She shrugged .
Parker sighed softly I was indifferent to you , because you were to me .
She told him .
Its not your fault .
I really should have tired harder .
I am to blame Belladonna , not you .
I knew what I wanted , but couldnt bring myself to tell you , because I didnt think you would want to hear it .
I likely wouldnt have given you what you wanted , even if youd told me .
She stated apologetically .
