90 +9 Point : 90 Parker He sat in his office after Belladonna had left and thought about what she had just told him ; she didnt have any connection with anyone at all , bar Whit and Milly , and she put it down to Freya , her own wolf .
It could well be just that , if her wolf had never socialised with any of those here inside the pack , then no connection had been established with any of them , shed become antisocial , so to speak … his own wolf had never been allowed to see her or mate her , she couldnt be called out by just anyone .
Freya and whatever type of wolf she was , likely had a destiny of her own , one that probably didnt involve being mated to any other out there in the world .
Perhaps things would have been different if that wasnt the case .
Maybe they could have had a proper mate bond and come to truly love each other .
Belladonna wasnt currently distant from him , or he didnt think so .
She was sitting and talking with him every day , accepting coffee from him , or having a meal with him , or them .
She was allowing that this evening .
A dinner just for him and her , the two children , in the private dining room .
She had just nodded when he asked if she and the children would join him .
Hadnt rejected it , didnt look to even consider rejecting it .
They could get along , and easily so , shed not shied away from him hugging her either , just smiled at him .
Told him shed never hated him .
That was good to hear ; a relief .
There was room to move and try to start building a connection if it could be done .
Though her not having connections to any others , that bothered him because it meant even now , here in the present , she still couldnt likely do that .
So could it be any different between them ? If he asked her out ? Or would it just remain the same ? That bothered him quite a bit as he sat and thought about it .
If he told her he loved her , and she agreed to become his mate once more , and she was still completely indifferent to him , would he be able to handle that ? Not even he knew the answer to that question .
It would also mean that Vex would go back to not having a wolfen mate that cared at all to be with him .
Wouldnt want to run with him , wouldnt want to talk with him or interact in anyway , wouldnt even allow herself to be seen by him , Vex ? he asked his wolf .
Love Belladonna .
Vex stated simply , 1/4 90 +8 Point : But Freya .
Parker pushed a little still concerned .
Was never mine , will never be .
Vex told him I know that .
His beast sounded resigned to the idea of it .
Its not nice for you though .
Parker murmured .
Bella never objected to me mating her in human form .
Wouldnt object again .
Vex told him .
No , I suppose not … if we can get back to that , of course .
She likes it here … though … Though Parker prompted even though he had a feeling he knew what Vex was going to say , his beast had been quietly watching her for the past six months , trying Parker thought , to figure her out himself .
Freya hardly there now , has gotten less over the past six months .
Vex huffed .
Do you think shes unhappy to return here , where we are ? it was the question he didnt want to really ask , but what if bringing them back here to his pack was not what Freya wanted , but Belladonna was now considering it .
She was so very kind and considerate , and he knew she would want her son , their son , to be happy .
So was she in fact sacrificing her own wolf for the happiness of her own child ? Shed never put herself first , not once and with that disconnection she felt to everything , something she even felt from her own wolf .
Would it concern her at all to lose her wolf if there was no real connection to her ? Dont know , dont understand Freya .
Vex stated , Cant and if her own human cant , no one can .
Parker sighed heavily to himself and got up .
He couldnt figure it out .
Belladonna was 36 now and still didnt understand her own beast , so how was anyone else supposed to ? Her own father had told him she was practically wolf less , had such a weak beast that not even an Alpha Order had been able to bring her forward , which to him meant she didnt truly have one .
Though he and Vex had felt her wolf the day shed walked into that mans office , she hadnt been wolf less like everyone thought , just had a beast that belonged … his thought process stopped at the word belonged , and he thought about that , who did Freya belong too ? He got up and walked off to find Belladonna to try and help answer that question that was now rolling around inside his mind .
She was easy to track even though not a pack member , because he knew what she smelled like , lemon zest and ginger and she had the Hollowed Moon pack scent attached to her , of a 2/4 +8 Points 90 blanket flower it was more spicy than sweet and it suited her .
She was outside watching Milly play in the shallow end of the pool designated for toddlers and was only knee deep .
She looked up at him with a smile on her face , though he was certain that it was for her daughter and not him .
When he stated her name , Can I ask you a really strange question ? he asked .
She nodded .
When did you get your wolf ? he asked .
Freya says at birth .
She answered him .
At birth ? he asked and mused at the same time , then sank down next to her as he thought about that .
Not many got wolves at birth , though there were a few recorded throughout their wolfen history .
I think Belladonna , Freya is a Wolf of Destiny .
He told her about his thoughts on the subject .
Hmm , I would probably agree with that .
She nodded .
That at birth thing , can you explain that to me , if possible ? he asked .
Yes , Freya stated she was my mothers wolf , moved into my body when my mother died , and I was born .
To protect me from a life like my mothers .
Now that got his attention , Your mothers wolf inhabits your body ? Yes .
She answered , So , Freya is not your wolf at all ! he mused out loud .
That could explain a lot about why she was disconnected from everything , including her own wolf .
It was as simple as Freya didnt belong to her , she belonged to Belladonnas mother .
I have another odd question ? Go ahead .
Likely not anything I havent asked Freya myself at one time or another .
She stated .
The one that can call Freya out , I heard from Mala and Aston , is a woman … Do you think she is your mother ? Bella looked from Milly to him with a raised eyebrow .
No , I do not .
A nice thought though , but no .
Why not ? he pushed a little .
Do you know who it is ? Yes , and Im not about to tell you , Im also not a part of their interactions with each other .
I am put to sleep when it happens .
She told him with a shrug .
3/4 +8 Point : 90 That is odd .
He frowned .
Not really considering who she is .
Id say … kind of to be expected .
Parker huffed , You speak cryptically , do you know that ? Yes , so does Freya .
But I understand she doesnt want you to see her , or know about her , and I respect her wishes because all my life I was warned horrible things would happen to me if anyone saw my wolf .
Freya , or your wolf ? he asked in return .
What ? she frowned right at him .
Freya is not your wolf , Belladonna , she was your mothers .
He commented , So is it Freya that cant be seen or your beast who she hides from even you , that cant be seen? he asked now .
Neither wolf could be seen at this point , so he was a little confused by her statement , but now he didnt believe Freya was her wolf at all .
