99 Belladonna She couldnt rouse Freya at all now .
There was not even a flicker of movement , Bella was trying to wake her to get answers but got nothing at all .
Freya had told her she would tell her about her mother when it was time , but now her wolf was slumbering in such a deep sleep that nothing , not even Bella yelling at her to wake up , made an ear twitch .
Parker she felt had maybe guessed correctly , because although Freya was slumbering there was a presence inside her mind , it was heavy to her , and angry at times .
Shed never really felt angry before, just that one time inside Astons office , and it had shocked everyone , though that day also felt like it was Freya that was angry .
She now wondered if it had been ? Bella had an overwhelming desire to go and find her children , to lay eyes upon them .
She got up and left Parkers office to do so .
They werent all that hard to find .
She could sense them and b line them with her family bond .
They were in the entertainment zone .
She watched both Whit and Milly play for a full minute and felt happiness roll out of that darkness inside her mind .
It wasnt just happiness , it was also love , and she realised at that very moment Parker was going to be right .
There was another beast within her and right now that desire to see her children .
It wasnt exactly hers , but came from the darkness within her mind .
Freya had stated Whit was not hers and that was because she now realised , he wasnt .
He was Bella and her own beasts ; a beast that Freya repressed and confined , had complete control over and though there was love coming from that darkness inside her mind .
When Bella tried to reach for it and connect to it , she couldnt .
She found Freya between her and the other living within her .
Shed never known the truth until right this very minute : Freya was not her wolf .
When she thought about it , it was also likely that Freya may not have even been her mothers wolf either .
Not if Freya could just possess a wolfen folk at will .
There was going to be something about her own wolf , its type of wolf she now thought , that was going to see others want to use and likely abuse her .
She bit her lip at that thought .
What if Freya left and that all came to pass now .
What if she was seen and used and abused , turned into whatever her mother had been? Bella shuddered at the possibilities of what that meant and turned away from her children and went right back to Parkers office .
She had a need to talk to him , he seemed to be able to 1/4 < 99 +3 Points > understand or think things through about her .
Hed also never once hurt her , and he was trying to figure it all out as well .
But Freya didnt seem to have trusted him , like she had Aston .
There was a difference between the two men , and she was even willing to bet what it was .
Parker went out and took over other packs , started and engaged in wars .
Which looked to Freya like he was power hungry.
Whereas Aston was laid back , and his pack grew by itself , without the need to try and grow it , the man had never held mating balls to grow his pack , until the Wolfen Council had made him , and even then hed fought against it .
That she knew was going to be the difference between them .
Parker looked at her as she walked into his office and over to him .
Parker , can you tell me what you want for this pack ? she asked him plainly .
To grow and expand it ? For it to just be happy and healthy … Do you desire to take over more packs in the future ? He raised an eyebrow at her and then leaned back in his chair .
I want for my wolves to be safe , I dont need nor desire to go in and take over other packs .
Though it does look like I want that to others .
My reputation leads other packs to believe that , and that is something I let them all think in order to keep my pack safe .
Why ? he asked in return .
War ? she asked .
I dont like it , I dont want it , but it is unfortunately necessary to go to , in order to aid my allies .
If I didnt have to ever go to war again , that would be a true blessing , he stated .
That is the difference between you and Aston .
I know youd never hurt me , were always loyal , Parker , and so youre the same as Aston in that regard .
But you grew your pack through war , and my father he grew his pack through lies and deceit .
Freya saw your war party when you took me from that pack .
I think that is why you cant see her .
She hates war , is of the opinion that no wolves should go to war .
That they shouldnt covet what is not theirs , and those that do arent trustworthy in her eyes .
Parker nodded .
Though I didnt do it for selfish means , I went in to aid others , was in fact requested by my allies to retrieve their stolen pack members from your fathers pack , and a few other packs came to me to request aid to help rid them of terrible Alphas , to save their packs .
Bella nodded But Freya never saw that .
She mused , thinking it through Was done before I came here … I think there is something you should know about me and … I think , my actual beast .
214 < 99 Alright , Im listening .
Parker nodded ..
+8 Points > Do you recall that when I went into heat , a few months later , a lot of pups were born inside the pack ? Yes , he smiled .
Annette had a theory it was you .
My unit all also got pregnant on your last heat as well .
he nodded And so did just over 40 she wolves out in the pack .
Well , that stopped after we rejected each other , but … the pups explosions didnt stop .
What do you mean ? he questioned now , and she could see he was thinking .
It still happened , just kind of happened for different reasons , only after a super moon event where Id … she bit her lip , and wondered if he would want to hear her state that .
He smiled at her .
Im not upset about you being out there living your life , Belladonna , I wanted that for you .
So dont think I will get mad or annoyed about it .
Im glad you could fully move on , werent completely scarred by our mate bond .
I wasnt scarred by it and , from what I now understand after listening to other she wolves in the Hollowed Moon , you were actually a kind considerate Mate … But back to the topic at hand .
Yes , if I had s * x on a super moon , got all hopped up and needy crazy , as sometimes happens with a super moon .
Parker chuckled softly .
Yes , in dire need of s * x , He was alpha blooded as much as she was and clearly understood what she was trying to explain .
Well, she went on , the Hollowed Moon would have a lot of pups born into it four to six months later .
He leaned forward now and rested his arms on the desk and nodded after a moment .
A wolf of fertility , in other words … Your mother was likely one .
he sighed now .
Come, I have several books on wolf types .
I think your mother was a Citron Wolf .
Ive thought a lot about you since our last discussion on Freya and if she is your wolf or not .
He stood up .
A what ? she frowned as she followed him out of his office .
A Citron Wolf is one of the Wolves of Destiny , not nice lives for them .
Most Citron Wolves usually die from forced overbreading, to my knowledge .
I guess that could explain my existence then .
Grandmother stated my mother was not a mistress and didnt want my father to mate with her .
He was all about growing his pack any way he could .
Parker nodded .
A Citron Wolf on the super moon does exactly what you just described to me .
I dare say Aston also knew what you 3/4 < .99 48 Points > were , didnt use you for it .
So Freya trusted him completely where you were concerned .
If a Citron Wolf is mated ? she asked curiously .
I dont know , most are recognised by their wolfs eyes and fur .
Its said to be unique why they are called Citron Wolves .
From what Ive read , are never mated off .
Used by their own parents , sold for a so called good time , to other wolves in other packs , usually to Alphas , in order to have the effects roll through their pack , to generate pups .
He sighed .
Not nice for her .
That is horrible , She muttered .
Yes it is , he nodded .
I would not do that to you , Belladonna , and I will use all our subsidiary packs around us to protect you from such a fate befalling you as well … he stopped walking and looked at her .
What ? she asked in return .
